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Sunday, October 13, 2013

Oops

I received my flu shot on Friday.  Which means this weekend has been full of aches and pains and a low grade fever. Yesterday, was day chalked full of poor food choices.  It started off with biscuits and gravy and pancakes.  The on to not one but two Mountain Dew.  Full strength, I may add. The. On to dinner with lava lamp's parents which was burgers, fries, and a shake.  After that it was Belgium chocolates. And the icing on the cake was ice cream with cake and hot fudge.  It was a bad day to the tune of 4,000 calories. The weight on the scale was 260 this morning. 
So today, it's back to basics.   Today I had a protien shake diluted to 72 ounces.   Some cabbage with sausage.  And I am slowly drinking a gallon of green tea to help flush out the gluten and the salt.  Tomorrow, I will work out before work and stick to the food I brought.  Heavy on plants, some meat  no gluten.  
One day does not destroy progress.  I am not going to gain back all the weight.   Just need some damage control.  
Started reading a new book.  The Vegucation of Robin by Robin Quivers.   It's all about how she went to a vegan diet and it saved her life.  I have been a vegan before (It happened in college. Don't judge me), my body hates me for it.  My body likes meat. It likes protien and veggies.  It hates gluten and it's not a big fan of diary.  
However, I tolerate whey protien really well.  Go figure.   
The book is awful inspiring though. 


Thursday, October 10, 2013

Ten things Thursday

1. Monday and Tuesday, I went to work early to workout before my shift.   Here's the view from the gym
It's on the 9th floor

2. This what I look like when I'm done 
3.  My dog izzy loves me
4. The ninja came and I have been making smoothies.  
5. shakes is precious
6. So my hair dies the bath water a disturbing color
7. I've been reading a new book. Basically, it says to eat protien and carbs together every 4 hours 
8. Lava lamp is tired. He had a busy week
9.  Sister wants some love
10.  I think I'm starting to get a neck again. Woohoo!

Wednesday, October 9, 2013

Weigh in Wednesday: Week 7

Week 7

Starting weight: 278

Goal weight: 115

Last week's weight: 256.6

Today's weight: 253.5

Pounds lost: -3.1

Total pounds lost: 24.5


Well that was exciting.  I love how my body responds to weight training.  I feel better and more confident.   I'm off today and so far I have done laundry, dishes, and cleaned the kitchen.  Proof I have more energy.  I'm thinking about a 30 pound prize.  Hmmm. It will probably be Botox.  I'll let you know tomorrow. I plan in showing up full force for ten things Thursday.  :-)

Saturday, October 5, 2013

Seven things Sunday


1) My pj pants I got for Christmas last year fit again!!!!  Skulls are my family's crest. Dad is an old biker.  He actually gave me a ceremic skull a few years ago and it is and always be my symbol for him.  It meant a lot to me that dad thought about me when he was in sturgis.  


2) I'm so excited for October. One of those reasons is pumpkin candles.  I only burn them during the fall and winter.  I'm also stoked about pumpkin flavors.  And I have been doing well with  working my pumpkin obsession into my daily calories. 

3) I ordered a ninja blender.  I also got some protien proweder and flax seed.   I plan on making shakes to take to work.  Right now I'm doing one a day.   They are quick and fast. I'm hoping to work two a day in at work to keep me from getting so hungry.  

4) I quit drinking 6 years a go.  The bad side of that is I have never had a marguerita.   Until crystal lite came out with mock tails.  Lava lamp and I have been watching the second Season of Grimm.  And I'm drinking a pitcher of fake Rita's. 

5) I also picked up some flaxseed to throw in the smoothies in lieu of my omega 3 supplement.  It is 35 calories. My vivactin calcium chew is 20 calories. My multivitamin is 10 calories. I don't count those calories in my daily total.  Am I alone in that?

6) my hair is crazy red 

7) I am stoked about the abs diet.  It's a good loose guideline.  Here's a pic of the power foods. A rough eating guideline on what to center your meals around.  Pretty easy and not a huge departure from what I've been doing.  Helps to give me some ideas.  


Weekend and week plans

Lately, I have been grumpy.  My inner toddler is coming out.  I'm trying to let the agitation wash over me.  Trying to not take it out on anyone.  
On the upside, I read the Abs diet book.  I got it at goodwill for a dollar.  I really liked the workout plan that's in there.  A very simple weight lifting program that I like.  I like the feeling of being sore from lifting and it doesn't aggravate my foot.  I'm going to try to stick to it. It's a 5-6 day a week work out plan.  3 days lifting and 2-3 days of cardio.  I'm hoping as I lose more weight, I can do more difficult excercise.  

Since my left foot is still a little swollen I got new shoes.  The old ones that I was wearing to work are pretty ratty and I think my Keen's will fit better after I lose another 30 pounds.  I also got a pair of running capris.  The plan is to go into work an hour early and use the gym there.  That way, if I'm stranded, I'll have to work out.  

Food is going well.  Though it is getting dull. I kinda just want something deep fried.  
I dyed my hair last night. Semi-permanent vampire red.  The red turned out well on my natural color, but it turned out a little too bright on my highlights.  I will need to do a braid and tuck when I go to work, but I dig it.  I'll post a pic when I get it all fixed up.  
Next Tuesday I have my third appointment with the bariatric clinic. I'm excited.  It means I'm half way through my 6 month plan. Woohoo!

Wednesday, October 2, 2013

Week 6: rinse and repeat

Week 6

Starting weight: 278

Goal weight: 115

Last week's weight: 258.2

Today's weight: 256.6

Pounds lost: -1.6

Total pounds lost: 21.4

This week, I Zumba'd three days.  Food has been around 1200 calories except for Saturday which was 2500. 

Next week, I will Zumba at least 3 days and I will try to keep calories around 1200.  Shark week (TOM) started today.  Hopefully, when that goes, the hunger will go.   I haven't felt like blogging because of this damn insatiable hunger.  I keep trying to talk and breathe my way through it.  My hunger will not kill me. My hunger will pass.  My hunger will not last forever. 
I can't wait to get a freaking lap band.  

Sunday, September 29, 2013

NSV

So once a week I eat more than 1200 calories.  Lava lamp and I got Mexican. I got a chimichanga meal and...
Wait for it...
I didn't eat it all.  
That never happens. 
And then we got ice cream. And right now it's chillin in the fridge.  Because I'm to full eat. 
Wow.
Hopefully this will continue.  

Saturday, September 28, 2013

I'm hungry.

One lovely thing about where I work is that people have started commenting on the fact that I've lost weight.  I've only lost 12% of my excess body weight. I can see my double chin going down.   
The down side is that I'm really hungry most of the time.  I hope that weight loss surgery will take care of that.  
Today I need to Zumba and cook.  Right now this is all I want to do. 
Yes, I sleep with a T Rex named Tibirius. Don't judge me. 

Wednesday, September 25, 2013

Wiw week 5. Tragedy avoided

Week 5

Starting weight: 278

Goal weight: 115

Last week's weight: 259.7

Today's weight: 258.2

Pounds lost: -1.5

Total pounds lost: 19.8

Thank goodness I pulled out a win for this week.  
This week I will eat 1200 calories most days and below 2000 once.  I will Zumba for an hour 4 times a week.  I will keep on keeping on :-)

Ten things Thursday and yes I worked a head

1) I am discouraged.  I have lost 20 pounds and still have 143 to go.  I know the last 50 will really suck.  I need to get my head out of my rear and keep doing this one day at a time.  

2) I'm following a modified paleo diet.  Modified because I eat yogurt.  I'm eating the yogurt because of probiotics and that it is so high in protien (90 calories 16 grams of protien).  I have this day dream that I can eat whatever I want.  The truth is I have a lot more energy and less pain when I eat clean, bordering on paleo.  

3) I'm trying to use up all my raw meal replacement.  I like the ingredients label. The effect it has on weight loss, but the consistency of it means u have to chug it. Which won't be an option after surgery.  It costs about 50 dollars a can, so I'm not wasting it. 

3) Zumba.  I feel like an idiot doing it. Seriously, you can set up a web cam in my living room called "white girls can't dance"

4) I have the Nike wrap shoes that cover everything but the toes.  Wonderful for Zumba.  Aside from the toe wedgie you get. 

5.  I will spend this weekend cooking.  And closing out our pool.  I can't wait for pool season next year

6. I have been craving pizza so this weekend I will make a pepperoni baked spaghetti... Squash.  Hopefully it will satisfy my cheesey craving. 

7.  I'm at work. Wouldn't it be nice if I could be independently wealthy. 

8. I wanna go to utah's red rock resort.  Need to save up some money :-) 

9.  I'm hungry all the time. I could eat a whole pizza right now. By myself. 

10.  I can't wait till I'm at my goal weight. I'm hoping within 2 years I can be in the land of maintance. 

Monday, September 23, 2013

Zumba my butt off

 Yesterday, after blogging about not wanting to Zumba, I zumba'd.  Today I zumba'd for an hour.  It was intense. I got the side stitch that I get when I run.  Zumba seems to be what I need right now. It's easy on my joints and burns massive calories. I can't wait until I'm lighter and my joints won't hate me for running or doing Jillian michales 30 day shred.  Zumba is my gate way drug.  
I confess I have been weighing every day. With my gluten intolerance I pile on weight when I eat bread. After the pizza on Friday I piled on 8 pounds.  Today, only 5 of that is missing. It makes me feel like a failure.  That I can try so hard to stay under calories for most days and one day ruins it.  
Oh well
What we have learned boys and girls is that if I feel the need to eat pizza than I either need to buy it by the slice or get a delite pizza from papa Murphy's.   
yesterday I made food for the week.  I need to go and pack my lunch for work tomorrow. Have a good day. 

Sunday, September 22, 2013

Happy birthday lava lamp!!!

Lava lamp turned 30 yesterday.  We celebrated with laying on the couch and watching the second season of once upon a time.  We ate japanese (no rice thank you) and ice cream. It was pumpkin with yellow cake and fudge. And I completed the day at 1213 calories. Today we have cooking and cleaning to do. I'm going to make some more egg muffins and roasted vegetables.  I need to get the motivation up to work out.  Between the biopsies, Percocet, pizza, and sugar, I have a hangover.  I'm feeling very blah.
Oh well
I pick my self up
I brush myself off
I start all over again. 

Friday, September 20, 2013

Please kill me

Yesterday was pot luck day at work. There were green beans and corn and cabbage. Which led to fried chicken and cup cakes.  I wrote everything down and it came to 2283 calories.  The wroting things down kept me from eating until it hurt. 

Today I went have uterine biopsies taken. Holy mother of God batman.  There was screaming, blood, and tears. Now I'm at home on Percocet. And I ate pizza. And sweet tea.  Did it make me feel better? No. Now I'm trying not to go eat more pizza.  Tomorrow is not done though.  I can always try again.  Back to the couch...

Wednesday, September 18, 2013

2nd appointment in the bag

Week 4

Starting weight: 278

Goal weight: 115

Last week's weight: 267.2

Today's weight: 259.7

Pounds lost: -7.5

Total pounds lost: 18.3

I'm sitting at the Drs office waiting for my second appointment with the weight loss clinic.  It's interesting to watch the clientele of this place.  I keep looking at the other patients and think, "am I that fat."  Well, I may be fat but at least I didn't show up in swear pants.  Hmrph.  
I'm not an incredibly girly girl, but I make it a point to put on some nice clothes and wear make up hear.   I guess I don't want to be that stereotypical fat, sloppy person. 
While I'm here, I'll see the doc, excercise specialist, attend a nutrition class, and do a support group meeting.  And then drive an hour home.  Did I mention I forgot my protien bar.  Dang it. And I'm already hungry.  :-(.  
Photographic evidence. 

So I was told I needed new pants.  Mine are too big. :-) well that's lovely. 
I lost an inch and a half from waist and chest.
The bariatric specialist said everything looked good
The dietician asked if I had been eating at all.  
The exercise specialist said to keep up the good work.  And she likes my shoes.  She wants to be my friend.  I know she does.
Support group was great.  Except for this  one old lady who wanted to talk about herself the whole time.  The lovely program manager answered a lot of questions regarding who does the fills ( the surgeon for the first 90 days and then  the bariatrician).  
So far so good.  
It's amazing how much better I feel when I'm not eating processed crap and when I'm not eating gluten.  Today will be function of staying strong and keeping on keeping on.  

Week 4

Starting weight: 278

Goal weight: 115

Last week's weight: 267.2

Today's weight: 259.7

Pounds lost: -7.5

Total pounds lost: 18.3

I'm sitting at the Drs office waiting for my second appointment with the weight loss clinic.  It's interesting to watch the clientele of this place.  I keep looking at the other patients and think, "am I that fat."  Well, I may be fat but at least I didn't show up in swear pants.  Hmrph.  
I'm not an incredibly girly girl, but I make it a point to put on some nice clothes and wear make up hear.   I guess I don't want to be that stereotypical fat, sloppy person. 
While I'm here, I'll see the doc, excercise specialist, attend a nutrition class, and do a support group meeting.  And then drive an hour home.  Did I mention I forgot my protien bar.  Dang it. And I'm already hungry.  :-(.  
Photographic evidence. 

Monday, September 16, 2013

I'm dreaming of a new body.

It only took me 6 hours to get up the motivation to Zumba.  But I did it.  So the chicken salad was delicious.  You take 3.5 oz of chicken breast, 1/2 cup sliced grapes, 1/2 cup apples, and 1/4 cup plain Greek yogurt. A half cup was too much.  Yummy.  I'm also thinking of going gluten free this week.  Much like my goal weight, lets just see if I can.  
My goal weight is 115. I was reading some magazines this weekend and wondered what I would look like at that weight. So weird. What would I do if my thighs didn't touch?  I how ever would embrace being a 32 A or just having an A cup.  Boobs so get in the way.  I am a huge fan of plastic surgery.  My body is the only thing I'm taking to the grave with me.  Why do you think I'm considering lap band/ Bypass surgery?  I have never understood how some people can be pro WLS surgery and think plastic is horrible.
Neither surgeries will save your marriage, find true love or get you a job promotion.  Both surgeries can improve your confidence, your quality of life and make shopping easier.  
Hell, as soon as I get a few hundred I can throw away I'm getting Botox again.  Not because of the cosmetic effect because it helps with my tension headaches. 
If you are one of those people who are anti plastic and some one wants to buy you new boobs, please email me and give me the money.   I'll take it.  This fraken-Barbie has no shame. 
You can donate to my Botox fund here

Sunday, September 15, 2013

Sweatin on Sunday

Yesterday, I consumed 2,400 calories.  And I was blessedly full. 800 of that was dove chocolate with caramel.  Yum. So I don't feel to bad about the calories. I counted out and wrote down everything that went in my mouth. Normally, when I binge I say f$&@ it and don't write it down. This was controlled. Also, my bmr (basal metabolic rate, the calories that sustain you through your day when given an activity factor) is 2500. So still a win. 

Today, I cooked a huge mess of roasted veggies. Something to get full on. I also made egg muffins. With those I can trim off about 40 calories from breakfast.  I also made fluff. It is a concoction of artificially flavored sugar free jello, pudding, cool whip, pineapple and oranges.  At about 150 calories for a cup, it hits my sweet tooth a d gives me a serving of fruit.  It seems like everyone is blogging about chicken salad.  I currently have chicken breasts in the crockpot.  I'm thinking chicken plus plain Greek yogurt and then some sliced grapes and apples.  I added apples for a wordorf salad crunch instead of my usual pecans. I know , I know. I could have used celery.  In my opinion, celery is natures dental floss and I hate the stuff unless its cooked within an inch of its life in a soup.  
I just got done doing Zumba on the Wii. I bought nike's studio wraps for it.  Besides giving me a toe wedgie that really helped my feet slide and protected the ball of my foot.  I hate wearing tennis shoes when I work out at home.  One of he many reasons why I work out at home.  
Here's the post work out glow!

Saturday, September 14, 2013

Picnic people


So I have a group of friends who are affectionately know as "choir practice". Why? Because grown adults don't get together for no reason.  And it's hard to explain.  Choir practice is something my small Kentucky town gets.  
Today was our chicken picnic.  Omg that chicken was good.  We also throw down and bring the sides.  Lava lamp cooked a big thing of baked beans.  Plenty of brown sugar.  I had my leg and thigh of chicken and sides.   It was green beans and watermelon and tomatoes.  676 calories in all.  Holy mother. That coupled with a 190 calorie protien bar translates to I'm going over calories today.  The problem I have with dieting is that I am freaking starving.  An hour after lunch and I could eat a toddler.  In barbecue sauce.  I hope to God I get the lap band.  Hopefully, I won't have to live like this forever.  The reason I want the lap band, need the lap band, is that I can't deal with this.  I can do it for the short term, but long term, I will break.  I will need to be full.  This is just torturous.  
Enough about the war between my belly and my head.
(I'm okay. My hunger will not kill me.  Deep breathes)
Here are some pictures. 



Friday, September 13, 2013

Finally Friday

So far this week has been good food wise.  Fish and veggies and yogurt. The cafeteria where I work posts nutritional facts beside the food. This is Awesome with a capital A because it allows me to eat things I could never guess at.  Today I had a flatbread with feta and spinach that was 250 calories.  The grilled veggies here are Ah-Mazing.  Seriously, I wish I could take home a vat of them for the weekend.  Next Wednesday I have my follow up appointment. I seriously need to get my self together in regards to working out. I'm too pooped to do it after work and I can't up before work.  I should be sweating it up this weekend though 
I also have a cook out this weekend.  That will be a challenge. There will be grilled chicken which is good.  As long as I can stay away from the sides and desert table, I should be alright. 
I can't wait to be off. I'm knackered.  This weekend there will be cooking and cleaning and shopping and sweating. Woohoo!
Btw I'm in boss's office blogging.  
Isn't this doll creepy? It's an educational dummy for young kids and she keeps staring at me...

Thursday, September 12, 2013

Ten things Thursday

1.  I really need to get my self together when it comes to working out. I can not get my bones up early enough to work out.  I'm going to try to do it when I get home.  12 hour shifts makes that incredibly difficult.  Bah. I wish I could quit my job and be professionally fabulous. 

2. Eating has been much better today and yesterday. I'm keeping it under 1200 calories.  Go me. 

3.  I wish I could afford a personal trainer to come to my house and yell at me in a Swedish accent

4. My lovely co worker Gus
5.  Gus or G love with special sauce as I call her, is the only one at work who knows I'm going for lap band

6. If I get down to my goal weight, I will totally have plastic surgery again.  Lord knows I will use any means necessary to keep my boobs at 22.  

7.  I don't have cable or any tv channels at home. I prefer to borrow movies and tv seasons from the library.  

8.  My puppies love me. This is my main man. Shhh don't tell lava lamp
9.  I sleep with two of my dogs.  Izzy (above) sleeps at my feet.  Shakes (below ) sleeps by my butt
10) i am so ready to go home.  Only 4 more hours left :-)

Wednesday, September 11, 2013

I'm not crazy, trust me.

Week 3

Starting weight: 278

Goal weight: 115

Last week's weight: 261.7

Today's weight: 267.2

Pounds lost: +5.5

Total pounds lost: 10.8

So clearly I need to get back on my stuff. Write down what I eat.   Try and excercise.    And do better.  All in all, the experience was eye opening in that I need to work on my behavior when I leave routine.   

Yesterday, I went and had my psych eval.  It was interesting.  I know they want to make sure I'm not depressed or have anxiety so I'll be more compliant with the program.  I'm a huge fan of counseling and am a ten year vet myself.   It was wierd going into a psychologist and nothing is wrong and I'm happy. After the appointment, he gave a mmpi and another test to complete.  If you don't feel crazy before, you will after 600 true/ false questions.  
Do you like automotive magazines?
If you were a journalist would you like to report on the theater?
Are people controlling your thoughts?
Do you like to watch other people suffer?
Oh my, that escalated quickly. 
I should have the official results in a few weeks
And as an update, my foot is fine. Woohoo. It came back together quite well. 

Tuesday, September 10, 2013

Back again


I had a wonderful time on vacation.  It was lovely to see new sights. The question is, why do I eat like its my job?  I understand being a little more lax. Having to guesstimate a little more.  The amount of candy and cookies I ate was ridiculous.  Oh well. 

We were in the Smokey mountains. Which had amazing hiking.  I was too out of shape to hike up the mountain.  Next year I'm going back and conquering observation tower. Mark my words.  


Thursday, September 5, 2013

I'm a bad person.

A major part of my job is dealing with body fluids.  There are more people in this town then I care to admit who have had my hands inside them. I have come home with pieces of people on me.  

So when lava lamp cut his finger, I was of no help. It was barely more than a paper cut and he freaked out.  This is a man who passes when he sees needles and has passed out, laying down.  
That being said when he was on the ground, I didn't get a cool wash cloth or find the first aid kit. I took a picture. 
Enjoy!!!

Ten things Thursday-- pre trip edition

1) I hopped on the scale this morning and it said 260.1

2) that weight loss is due to shark week (my period) starting yesterday.  But it is quite motivating. 

3) it makes me not want to say eff it while I'm gone this weekend

4) tomorrow, lava lamp and I are going to gatlinburg,  Tennessee to be with his mother, her 5th husband, his gay step brother, and his black lover. Doesn't that sound like a premise for a reality tv show?  The script writes its self.  

5) honestly I am super excited to be getting away for a few day and not having to worry about work for awhile.  Lava lamps family is super awesome and we always have a good time with them. 

7) I'm scared about the eating though. Part of me wants to say we'll start next week trying to lose weight and part of me wants to say nothing  but veggies all weekend.  

8) we packed some high protein, low calorie protein bars.  Hopefully, if I can stick to those and one meal a day, I'll be fine.  (Ever notice how many protein bars aren't that high in protein?)

9). It has been awesome that my sugar cravings (re:shark week) have been indulged due to me leaving enough calories for it.  The past 2 nights I've had small hot fudge sundaes with marshmallow cream from Dairy Queen.  Hit the spot for 380 calories. Kept total calories under 1200.

10) I need a house keeper.  Sometimes I blog to avoid chores :-)

11) Bonus. This is lava lamp and I visiting family on Monday

Wednesday, September 4, 2013

WIW

Week 2

Starting weight: 278

Goal weight: 115

Last week's weight: 264.6

Today's weight: 261.7

Pounds lost: -2.9

Total pounds lost: 16.3

Today I went to my gyn to have biopsies taken.  I had an abnormal Pap smear, again.  This has been an ongoing problem since 2009. Abnormal pap, then comes biopsies, then comes cryo.  
Sigh
What's different about this year is the pain.  I have been having lower abdominal pain for a while which has turned in to a twisting  no fun at all pain in the last few weeks.  The doc wants to do  ultrasound with biopsies later this month.  I know it sounds like a good time. 
And I have no idea why that paragraph decided to be bigger
Shrug
After the birthday binge, I am very excited about the weight loss. And God know excercise has been hit or miss.  Hell, even if I had done everything perfectly, I'd be excited about a 2.9 loss. It looks like I am ahead of schedule. Woohoo.  
Maybe the universe wants me to be skinny....
Kinda crazy.  





Monday, September 2, 2013

And that's how people end up in freezers

Yesterday I got stuck in surgery.  

I look at that sentence and realize how alarming that can be to people who don't work in that field.  No I was not a patient who crashed.  No it wasn't a pb episode I hear the lovely lap banders talk about. I was physically stuck in surgery.  11 hours into my shift I find out they added a case to the or schedule that I needed to be present for.  Then I find out they added another. I looked at the surgeon ( who happens to be a very kind and generous man who always tries to do the right think and thusly makes more work for all of us) and told him that he legally only had me till 11:30. Labor laws and all.  He states "what do I do if I want you illegally?" 
"Send a lot of emails buddy"

So that's how I ended up working a 16 and half hour shift yesterday.  

I come home to lava lamp having ate the last two of my egg muffins.  Perfect little morsels that I eat for breakfast, take 2 hours to cook, and that we don't have the ingredients for in the house.  

What the %#€}!!!!

Of all the things he could have ate, it had to be my breakfast for the next day didn't?

Do you have this problem?  How do the loved ones in your house thwart your progress?  How do you deal with it?  Should I kill him?

So now I have been up for 4 hours. I'm dizzy and nauseous because I haven't eaten and nothing sounds good. Nothing at all. 
Any suggestions on how to regroup when things go wrong?  

Saturday, August 31, 2013

This is Sparta


So yesterday was a bad food day. I didn't sleep well Thursday night and I got up and ate not one, not two, but 4 cupcakes.  Woke up on Friday and felt queesy so cue not eating til lava lamp and I went out to eat at 3. It was an extravaganza of pasta, bread and calamari.   On to the movie theater, which brought sprite and hot buttered popcorn with m&ms mixed in. ( You really must try that).  We came home and had cake.  
Sigh
Today I have been on point. I ate my 4 small meals and no sweets.  How ever it was so busy I only drank a out 50 oz of water.  One day does not mean I'm done for. One day is not complete failure. 
On the bright side, yesterday I woke up to this 

We saw mortal instruments. Not all that good.  I read the book and I was interested in seeing how it translated.  The answer was: meh. I suggest you wait for video

Lava lamp decided to text all his friends and have them wish me happy birthday. I had 40 texts.  I was wondering how every man in my life knew it was my birthday.  It wasn't until I got home that he let me in on the secret. 

Today, in the ICU bathroom I found this.  I giggled. 



Thursday, August 29, 2013

Ten things Thursday-- birthday edition

1) last night's birthday dinner with a friend went well.  310 calories of onion soup and lemon orzo soup. 64 oz of unsweetened herbal tea. You know your friends are awesome when they don't bat an eyelash when you order 2 cup of soups.  

2) birthday lunch with my parents was fabulous.  Rainbow trout with green beans and mustard greens.  

3) they gave me a kitchen aid mixer. Woohoo. I love it and all its steel chromed loveliness. It's my precious 

4) and I made orange cupcakes with it. It mixed that batter smooth and silky.  Tonight's "choir practice" (euphemism for when a group of us get together and drink coffee) will be a birthday edition and I baked. I love to cook, but in my current state I need someone to push the food on.  There will be better than sex brownies.  

5) lava lamp and I planned pasta dinner is a no go. I don't want to screw up progress right now. I'd rather him buy me the stuff to make turkey meatballs with sauce :/)

6) I won't get my birthday present from him til Friday.  I can't wait to see what he bought me.  He always comes up with the best presents!!!

7) then Saturday I will be 31.  

8) I love getting older.  I'm secure in my career. I'm a home owner. And I don't much care about what other people think.  I have true friends that love me and an awesome relationship with lava lamp.I don't miss the finding myself portion of my 20's at all.  

9) project birthday cake is going nicely. We ended up getting a sampler from cold stone and I've been eating a piece a night.  So far so good.  But I will be relieved when it leaves my house. 

10) bob Harper was a no go yesterday.  Bob hurt my back. So I did wii Zumba. According to the program, I burned 386 calories and 0 style points and 0% technique.  Clearly I will be working on shaking my booty.  I need practice!!!!

Wednesday, August 28, 2013

WIW

Week 1

Starting weight: 278

Goal weight: 115

Today's weight: 264.6

Pounds lost: 13.4

Woohoo!!!!
That makes giving up soda so worth it.  It also makes me hungry to look at;-). I love first week weight loss.  I feel a lot better already and I'm sleeping better.  Yesterday, I had my one slice of cake and added it into my daily calories.  Stuck with tea at my birthday meet up last night.  I did not even glance at the lovely coffee concoctions.  
Woohoo. 
By the way, I have fallen off the water band wagon.  I am drinking 100 oz of unsweetened ice tea.  I've been alternating between earl grey, Irish breakfast, and English breakfast. I justify it by saying at least it's not artificially sweetened or sugary.  Tea has anti oxidants right?  I need to fill up my water bottle and leave it in my purse.  May try that today.  
Now off to see bob Harper for torture. 

Tuesday, August 27, 2013

I hate bob Harper

I just completed the biggest loser cardio max level one workout.  That sucked. The entire time my knees are hurting and I'm sweating and panting like a 2 pack a day smoker (which I use to be) I chanted in my head "115". 
The goal weight.  
I can do this.  
I believe I will take my cue from lapbandgal, regarding not counting exercise into my daily caloric goals.  That becomes a bit of a minefield for me.  7 years ago I got down to 150 pounds by making sure my in column matched my out column.  The obsessiveness that came with that was miserable and maddening.  I also do not want to fall into the trap that, by working out, I deserve more calories.   
I hopped on the scale today. It was a good number. I know it doesn't count because its not Wednesday, but the numbers are heading in the right direction.  Today I need to run errands. Go grocery shopping.  Get gas. Meet a friend for coffee.
It seems that I have been able to change all my big birthday dinners into smaller, more manageable feats. Like coffee (ill have the desert lime tea, thank you).  And places where I can get something light. I warned my co workers on Saturday to please not order me lunch. And that I will bring the cake. 
This year I am bringing the cake to all my functions.  There will only be one cake that should last 5 days and that my coworker Mona will take home on Saturday.  That way I can control how much leftovers are in the house and way to get rid of them.  I Also plan to post here more often this week to keep myself accountable.  
My other goal this week is to hang out with bob every morning til I go back to work on Saturday.  Maybe I will learn to love him. 



Sunday, August 25, 2013

Oh that's just mean

I have been on a 1200 calorie diet with no sugar, processed food, or soda (regular or diet).  And that detox sucked.  Lethargic.  Headaches. Irritable 
I feel better now. 
My birthday is next Friday.  I have been fantasizing about a birthday dinner. Cake from cold stone. Pasta from mirikos. Friends want to go out.   Celebrate. I was so down.  

Was being the operative world. 

Today I had a coworker from another department reach out and pinch my fat roll and call me chunky.  She pointed out how much weight I've gain.  
Yeah. 
Well so much for the plan to go off the reservation.   It looks like  I will keep on my lovely diet.  
>sigh<

Wednesday, August 21, 2013

Weigh in Wednesday

Week 0

Starting weight: 278

Goal weight: 115

Today's weight: 278

Pounds lost: 0

And I never have to weigh that much again.  If I can lose 2 pounds a week, by next year I will weigh 174.  If I lose 2 pounds a week, have lap band done 7 months from now, by my one year bandverisery I will be at goal.  Just 2 pounds a week.   It's only 2 pounds a week.  >chants in her head<

Deep breath

Lapbandgal commented on my blog.  It's like being visited by my lap band fairy god mother.  

Last night, I are the last meal.  Appetizers. Mini burger, mini tacos, rolls, buffalo chicken nuggets...  Mmm so good.  And then ice cream.  With hot fudge and Carmel. 
I had dental work done today and I have a few more hours before I can eat.  So in the mean time let's see what the last meal looks like



Tuesday, August 20, 2013

Countdown


I had my first appointment today.  My 6 months starts now. 

Lava lamp and I woke up at 5 am in order to get ready and get to the appointment an hour away.  We actually left the house on time, which never happens.  Very fortuitous, since there were some roads closed that we didn't know about.  

I met with the dietician and she gave me a rough eating plan and went over portion control.  Which is adorable.  I told her that I'm gluten intolerant and that I rice gives me heart burn (wierd I know).  I asked what to do about the 4-5 ounces of grains, since I won't eat them.  She said eat potatoes and corn.  Which was shocking to me, because that's the first time that anyone has ever encouraged me to eat those foods and I really don't eat those either. French fries are fried so I don't get those.  I guess I am destined to under preform in the grains category.  

The dietician was also the one that did my initial height and weight.  Let me tell you about that.  If I could put my heels together and place my butt and skull on the same wall I would not be at a weight loss surgery appointment, thank you very much.   She got my initial weight at 275.9.  I have to be down to 262.1 before they will schedule surgery. Can do little buddy. 

She did give me a pretty new food journal. So there's that.

The exercise lady was super fun.  I want us to be BFF's and do each others hair.  She's spunky and I want to take her home.  She clocked my body fat mass at 55% I think.  I then told her there's a good chance my foot is broken.  She preceded to tell me to get my x rays done and to check back later. She also took measurements.  She was a beast at it.  There's no way I could remember that many numbers.   

Next came the bariatrician.  In this practice, he takes over the role as my medical doctor and I see him every month prior to surgery.  I won't meet the surgeon til closer to time.  He was a fantastic guy and we talked about my history and the various surgeries they offer.  I know that lap band has the higher complication rate, but I still have some concerns about the gastric bypass.  There does not seem to be any research regarding if people who have gastric bypass young subsequently develop diabetes.   I know it will correct it, but can it prevent it?   I do have 6 months before I even have to make that decision.  After the 6 months, approval from surgery then takes another month or two.  I almost want to aim for the beginning of next summer.   Hopefully with a little hard work and some divine intervention I'll go through like a champ

They also gave me a binder.  I'm going to trick my binder out. :-). 
 I'm off to the grocery for yogurt, veggies, and the last meal.  Woohoo
Here's to the last of the sweet tea. 


Sunday, August 18, 2013

Can't wait!

I have had to work all weekend. I work for a medical system in podunk, kentucky. One of the awesome things about working here is that I have access to 3,000 fellow co workers and their opinions. I tap that resource any time I have to find a new roofer or car repair place. Especially helpful because I did not grow up here and everyone knows each other. I've been asking around about people's weight loss experience. I've heard that with gastric bypass that several of the ladies will eat what ever they want knowing they will "dump" and do it anyways. They have not lost the weight. That hits home for me because I know I would do the same thing. With my 30 year battle with my weight, I believe that i qualify as a food addict. I eat to the point of being uncomfortable. I eat knowing it's bad for me. I eat no matter what. It's also scary the lack of after care. I'm really excited about the 6 month supervised weight loss plan. I want some one to hold my hand, give me direction, and be there before and after surgery. I talked with a fellow that works here about his lap band experience. He was told that as long as he "followed the rules" he would lose the weight. And he lost 150 pounds. WOW! he looks awesome and can tell that he has so much more energy. He says that he uses the lap band to keep him in check. Im so excited for my appointment on Tuesday. I'm eager to get started on this journey. Im excited!

Thursday, August 15, 2013

TTT- why I want to lose the weight

TTT (ten things Thursday) weight loss edition 

1.  Because I have never lost all the weight before.  I'm an expert yo yo dieter. I lose 20, gain 30.  Lose 50, gain 70 ad nauseum.

3.  To try the undiscovered territory of maintenance.  I've never reached a goal. This looks like a wonderful new challenge. 

4. My heart.  I have a congenital heart defect.  The extra weight I'm carrying cAuses my already over worked heart to work harder.  At the ripe old age of 30, my heart is enlarging.  

5.  Mobility issues.  My best hurt. My knees hurt.  My shoulders hurt.  And I can't get around very well. My hustle is a slow shuffle. 

6. I have a family history of diabetes and Coronary heart disease.   My aunt died in her 50's after 2 open heart surgeries and a battle with diabetes.  No bueno. 

7.  To have a closet of clothes that always fits.  Not having to separate my closet by sizes or the weight I have to be to wear it.  

8. Too easily fit in and get in and out of the bath tub.  I no longer want to feel like a beached whale.  

9.  Too be able to run, do insanity, and Jillian michals with out hurting myself because I'm so big.  

10.  Too not feel sick and tired ALL THE TIME.  To feel rested in the morning and to sleep well at night.  To do things because "I got tired of sitting".  



Wednesday, August 14, 2013

Weigh in Wednesday


271.8 lbs

I bought a new scale today.  My old scale, depending on how you stood on it,  gave several different answers.  Seriously, if the moon was in Taurus you gained 5 pounds.  I bought a cute digital one that gives one reading. You don't have to watch it think about it or second guess its self.  It's also super light so when I'm done weighing it goes back in the closet.  I'm trying to only weigh on Wednesdays. I don't like when I obsessively   do that.  I don't like when my entire day is good or bad based on that number.  That my self worth has a numerical value.  
Speaking of which, Amy W and Lap band gal mention on their blogs that they wished they had before measurements. I took a lot.  Hey, maybe too much is better than too little.  
Neck: 15.5 in
Bicep left: 15.5 in
Bicep right: 15.5 in
Nipple line: 49 in
Chest: 44.5 in
1 in above belly button: 46.5 in
2 in below belly button: 50.5 in
Hips: 52 in
Thigh 6 in from knee, left: 28.5 in
Thigh 6 in from knee, right: 27.5 in
Calf, biggest point, right: 22.5 in
Calf, biggest point, left: 22 in
Ankle, left: 11.5 in
Ankle, right: 11.3 in
(Who knew you could put a number on cankles?)
And pictures
Woohoo
I realized that I forgot to do a back shot.  One day I'm going to have to prove those back rolls existed.  
Shield your eyes!!
Run for the hills!!!